Updated: Aug 7, 2018
Cannot believe I am moving in 2 weeks! My emotions have been running WILD. Some days I'm overwhelmed with packing; some days I'm sad about leaving my family and friends; some days I'm nervous about new classes and a new city and a whole lot of newness! It's a roller coaster.
But mostly, I'm excited. I'm excited for what God has in store for me. Instead of worrying and being anxious about the changes to come, I'm embracing them. I know that this is an opportunity to grow in my faith and how can I be anything but excited about that?? Recently, my life has become so much better because my faith has gotten so much stronger.
I was at church camp and I was having the best time. I was growing closer to God alongside my friends; what could be better?! Near the end of camp, I got hit hard (spiritually not physically). Long story short, I was upset about a situation that was out of my control. I'm not an emotional person, but I was a complete mess. My youth group leader and mentor said, "Thia! You're trying to be in control. You're not having faith in God." Ouch. It felt like a slap in the face... because she was right. I realized that I wasn't giving God complete reign over my life. I let Him in when it was comfortable, but when the difficult things came along I tried to handle it myself instead of trusting that He had it under control. I wanted to be in control, but I had to give that over to God. Once I did that, everything changed. It's like all along I'd been carrying this weight on my shoulder and once I gave it up to God, it all disappeared! I had to have FULL faith in him; not just when it was easy or convenient, but when it was hard and I was struggling too.
Now I just give God anything I'm dealing with and the weight comes off my shoulders. That gives me so much assurance because I know that anything that comes my way once I move I can navigate with God!
God has me. And He has you too but you have to release yourself to him. Fully.